Job Search and Life!!!

I must admit that I feel like a slacker. Earlier this school year, I visited my campus’s career service facility to have a resume critique. During my visit, the counselor I was working with asked me many questions that made me nervous about graduating. She asked me how many jobs have I applied for, what kind of web pages am I using, what are my plans after graduation, and what kind of jobs am I looking into. Immediately, I started to fill overwhelmed because I was taking each day as it came.
The career counselor informed me that the college student who graduates and instantly began working within his or her career path normally applies for 50 plus jobs during the school year. Why did she tell me that! I right away began to panic because, it was November and I was preparing my resume for the first job I was applying for since the school year started. Who knew applying for jobs was going to be a stressful thing. I am very nervous because I admit that I don’t know exactly where my career is headed.
I enjoy working with children and I would love to become a teacher or operate my own nonprofit organization for the youth. I also have a strong desire to write. I was in the tenth grade when I told my English teacher, at that time, that I was going to write a book. I still have plans to do that. I want to be a writer and an educator. Therefore, I have to decide which path to take and which path to place on temporary hold. Or, I might be able to make them both happen at once with a little more dedication and determination.
As for now, I am searching for jobs and internships that can help build my experience in the writing/editorial field. So far I have applied for three jobs and graduation is one month away. I am going to pull out my hair! I am nervous and the closer May approaches I become anxious. I spend random times at night searching for jobs that I think are suitable but I as mentioned, I only successfully completed three submissions.
I am going to strive to do better. I am the resource and guide for my success and; if I want to accomplish my dreams I have to put a little more work into this job hunt than I have been putting in. Indeed, when I feel like giving up, I quickly remember why I held on for so long. I am going places, watch me work.

The one thing I know for sure about my future is that the Monday following graduation I am completing my last English class. And then in June I am headed to France and Spain with my best friend and a large group of students, faculty members, and their friends and family. I am very excited and cannot wait for this trip. When I return, I have a year to get right for graduate school and work on my career as a writer and educator.